I’m finally starting to feel my age. This isn’t to say that I’m old. I’m still young, and I know this. I’ve just never FELT my age – physically or emotionally. Now? I notice that little extra bit of difficulty it takes to get up from the ground if I’m kneeling down to hug my son. I notice the creases around my eyes and mouth. Fortunately for me, those creases are due to the fact that I’ve spent the majority of my life smiling. For that, I am thankful.
I’m tired more often, and find myself wanting to spend far more time in bed than usual. I seem to lack the motivation to do the simplest of tasks – necessary tasks. I’m lazy. All of these things wear on me mentally, which only adds to the apathy.
I’m turning a corner, though. I’m slowly, but surely, coming out of this rut. For starters, I decided to give up meat – at least for a while. I want to see if it has the positive effects that I have heard it does. I can not help but notice that while Americans pay less and less attention to the food they put in their bodies, disease and obesity (and in turn, drug prescriptions) are on the rise.
In just the few days that I have not been eating meat, I FEEL better – both mentally and physically. I’m less tired and more energetic, despite having recently started a job that has me reporting in at 4 am. While ceasing the constant flow of toxins into my body that come along with massive meat consumption, I’ve also increased my vegetable intake from “never” to “sometimes.” I’m aiding myself in slowly cutting out meat, by eating Boca vegan burgers (and other similar products). Surprisingly, they’re quite good. Coming from a ravenous carnivore such as myself, that’s quite a statement. (Although I’d avoid the breakfast sausage.)
Things have began to turn the corner for me business-wise as well. I’ve booked several shoots on the heels of the Hennessy Artistry event, and while I have a new job that will provide bonus income in the interim, I’m on the cusp of locking down a REAL solid job with a prestigious company. Don’t get it twisted though. The goal is not to find a great 9-5 job in corporate America. No no. The goal is to find a great 9-5 job in corporate America to provide the income to really get the photography business off the ground. The ultimate goal is to leave corporate America behind, and go into business for myself. I want to enjoy my work, and enjoy my life. So while this post is currently titled “Weary,” promising things are on the horizon that will hopeful prompt a “Mission Accomplished” post in the very near future.