Project 365 – Day 30: Contemplation
I’ve struggled the past couple of days (today and yesterday). I’ve been contemplating how I’m going to get out of this creative rut I’ve been in. I was, and still am, mad at myself for not posting a shot I was proud of yesterday. I know. I know. All 365 shots are not going to meet my expectations. Some days I won’t have time. Some days I just won’t have “it.” However, it hit me a lot harder than I thought when I was unable to capture something I was proud to post.
It was my intention all along for the picture to be something film-related, and I intended for it accompany my Best Films of 2009 blog post. I just greatly disapproved of what I posted and I felt, and still feel, it was a cop out.
I woke up at 4 am this morning, unable to get back to sleep because of the flurry of ideas I had for future shots – none of which I could pull off today. So I became even more irritated that I can come up with ideas at 4 am, but when I’m actually up and about and able to get a shot done, I drew a blank. So, it’s been a rough couple of days for me. I’d like to apologize for my family for being kind of dick during this time, but I take this photography thing seriously and it really wears on me when I come up short. Sorry for the rant. 🙂